Tired

I'm tired. I'm tired of a lot of things. I'm tired of working more than enjoying. I'm tired of Florida's summer humidity causing debilitating allergies. I'm tired of politics and the presidential campaign. I'm tired of hatred and violence. But mostly I'm tired of thinking. Today, I am just tired of thinking.

It would be easy to turn into a thoughtless drone. Actually, for me I don't think it would be that easy, because my brain never turns off. Today it feels tempting to try. I'm tired of thinking about assessments and standards. I'm tired of losing any sense of relief about a big hurdle at work because the next one is coming faster than I'm ready for it. I'm tired of thinking about the awfulness in the world.  I'm tired of hatred and bigotry, and homophobia and sexism, and antisemitism, and hatred. It hurts my brain to think about all of it.  I'm just tired of thinking. I'm even tired of thinking about what I wish I could be spending my time doing. I'm tired of thinking there is something else out there.

I'm just so damn tired...