Scattered Mind and Split Devotion

My husband has long kidded with me that I have what he calls "career ADD." Some time ago, he noticed I seem to change jobs (or positions) about every 7 years. "Must be the seven year itch," he'd say to me when I'd start to look at job postings or mention the thought of moving on to something else. What I've realized, is I have interest in different things, and seem to want to make all of them part of my existence. Kind of like my mom used to say I was always at my best when I had too much on my plate. But I see it like this. Why not try as hard as you can to make your work and the things you are passionate about, one and the same? I'll tell you why...

My mind goes in so many different directions. I might be what some people call an idea person. I have so many things I want to do and wish to do, but most of them are ideas stuck in my head and written in my journals. And if you're thinking it's my own fault I don't make time for those things, or you want to give me sage advice that all great things take great sacrifice, I'm not buying it. I do have certain responsibilities, and I admit, a certain lifestyle I care to support. I simply have not found the right job, for the right income, that allows me to put my heart and soul into the things I really want.

My attention is divided. I want to write a book. I want to teach college. I want to spend more time traveling and being outside. I want more time to write. I want to learn photography. My mind goes in a hundred different directions, all the time. This can make it really hard to focus on getting down to business. I'm not afraid of work. G-d knows I've worked hard my while life, in work and in study. But in a perfect world, I guess I would have the financial freedom to move from project to project in the moment as my brain fired a spark of brilliance. In a perfect world...